Surreal

It's been four days since my father was laid to its final resting place. 

It's been surreal since Day 1. I still feel like floating. Sleepy and tired. Sad and angry. 

I don't understand.

I didn't know how I survived the rest of the days. I kept going and going. Errands after errands. So many things to do. So many tasks to finish. 

My body feels like exploding. I wanted to cry and to shout but I can't. It seems like I'm loaded with anesthesia. Numbness all over me.

Right now,  I am physically exhausted. Emotionally drained.  

All I want is to sleep.

I survived Day 1

Today is November 18, 2012. 

It's 5:39 in the morning. I'm awake. I can't go back to sleep.

My father passed away yesterday. 

I didn't know how I survived last night. Closing my eyes to sleep was the hardest part. I can't stop my eyelids from closing yet my mind won't allow it to shut. I can feel my body shaking every time I'm about to pass out. 

It was difficult.

Crying was never enough. I surpassed the crying part. Now I want to feel some pain. I want to get away from this numbness all over me. 

Today I have a lot of errands to do. Thinking clear and straight is a must. 

Tonight, facing my father's remains will be another battle. Sleeping is again a tough fight.

I survived Day 1....

I can do this.

Monster High in 50mm

My 50mm Canon Lens has been gathering dust in my cabinet so I played with it for a bit when I saw Mabe's Monster High doll Frankie Stein in one corner.

Just like Mabe's obsession with Monster High, I fell in love with this lens for so many months until I decided to purchase a Canon 28-135mm. 

Nice clicking with you again 50mm :))

Halloween 2012

Since Trick or Treat was no longer in our list, the Halloween Party at the DancePull Studio was our only halloween activity this year.

Mabe finally gave in to do the scary make-up. She's a vampire. (ruffled white polo shirt and black tiered skirt:thrifted hehehe)

A late Happy Halloween greetings to everyone!