I finally figured it out.

Finally I figured it out. Tinkered my blog today without an IT expert, and here I am now. Typing. So many words in my mind but I have to take this slowly. As you can see my blog is back in blogspot. This domain renewal thing is killing me, pressing my brain painfully. I just can't go to the renewal page. tsk. 

Anyway, let the problem be the problem whatever it is. I have to move on. In the coming days my blog will be under a new domain name. I am using my hard to pronounce name. Lol. 

I have to stop here. Meanwhile, I need to gather my thoughts and continue blogging tomorrow.

Bye!

Happy New Year by the way :)

Dear Google

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Dear Google:

The  above message was bugging me for nearly a month now. I cannot upload my photos. It says that I have to UPGRADE, which means I have to pay so I can have a 5GB storage.  

FML.

I have a lot in my head right now. This additional paid storage is the least of all the problems that I have to deal with. Wrong timing dude. Please. Please. Please. All I want is to post my photos and pour my freaking thoughts out.

Love,

Me, who's now holding self from untoward breakdown due to absence of photos which inspires me and helps me express when blogging at this lowest moment of my life.

Surreal

It's been four days since my father was laid to its final resting place. 

It's been surreal since Day 1. I still feel like floating. Sleepy and tired. Sad and angry. 

I don't understand.

I didn't know how I survived the rest of the days. I kept going and going. Errands after errands. So many things to do. So many tasks to finish. 

My body feels like exploding. I wanted to cry and to shout but I can't. It seems like I'm loaded with anesthesia. Numbness all over me.

Right now,  I am physically exhausted. Emotionally drained.  

All I want is to sleep.

I survived Day 1

Today is November 18, 2012. 

It's 5:39 in the morning. I'm awake. I can't go back to sleep.

My father passed away yesterday. 

I didn't know how I survived last night. Closing my eyes to sleep was the hardest part. I can't stop my eyelids from closing yet my mind won't allow it to shut. I can feel my body shaking every time I'm about to pass out. 

It was difficult.

Crying was never enough. I surpassed the crying part. Now I want to feel some pain. I want to get away from this numbness all over me. 

Today I have a lot of errands to do. Thinking clear and straight is a must. 

Tonight, facing my father's remains will be another battle. Sleeping is again a tough fight.

I survived Day 1....

I can do this.

Monster High in 50mm

My 50mm Canon Lens has been gathering dust in my cabinet so I played with it for a bit when I saw Mabe's Monster High doll Frankie Stein in one corner.

Just like Mabe's obsession with Monster High, I fell in love with this lens for so many months until I decided to purchase a Canon 28-135mm. 

Nice clicking with you again 50mm :))